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Running Toward Retreat

Long before Eat Pray Love was published, women were going on retreats. I’m not sure what makes up a retreat, although I talked a bit about cancer retreats here. I encourage you ALL to look into taking any amount of

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My Organ Donor

My Organ Donor – Telling Our Story   This is my 143rd attempt at writing about my organ donor. Now, I’ve got a second sentence in here. I think it’s going to happen…… because –  I’ve received a letter from his

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Take it Easy: Advice From My Sister

Take it Easy: Advice From My Sister  When my bottom lip sticks out and tears spill, I’ll simply write the word “cry”.  In July of 2014 an ultrasound picked up on cancer trying to take over my liver. My mind scattered out

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Courage and Confidence with Liver Cancer

Courage and Confidence with Liver Cancer  During my battle with liver cancer, I loved reading all of your personal cards, emails, and messages. How could I possibly respond back? (Picture me typing all night.) Instead, I folded strong words into

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A Spin Around the Sun

A Spin Around the Sun  Crossing the line into January is a really big deal around here. I’ve had a variety of kooky rituals over the years. Most of them have been about marking the passage of time. Buh bye

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Post Transplant Nervous Breakdown

Please excuse any typos or upside down pics. 🙂 I’m still working on transplant recovery. I don’t want to appear to make light of a the term “nervous breakdown”. There is not an official diagnosis, but it generally describes an

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What to Expect after a Liver Transplant

What to Expect after a Liver Transplant This is an email to a Best Friend who is waiting on their liver transplant. I thought you might like to read about what to expect after a liver transplant. As always, pardon any

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Time to get Listed for a Liver Transplant

 I am positively sure that every person who hears that it’s time to get listed for a liver transplant takes some time to freak out.  My doctors and team gave me a lot of information and tons of paperwork but it

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Writing a Thank You Letter to Donor Family

Writing a Thank You Letter to Donor Family   Writing a thank you letter to donor family was on my mind, even while I was still in the hospital, weak  but,  getting stronger. After my transplant, I thought of them constantly. The

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Going Back to Bed after Transplant

Going Back to Bed after Surgery   After the surgery, my transplant coordinators, friends, and family all conspired to make me rest. Then they got me all jacked up on steroids which made it totally impossible for me to sit

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Coming Home After My Liver Transplant

Coming Home After My Liver Transplant  This blog and subsequent ones will undoubtably be a hot mess. Given the batch of meds, steroids, and the anesthesia hangover – I promise nothing in regard to editing or coherency. Nothing except the truth

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Post Liver Transplant Protein and Healing

Post Liver Transplant Protein and Healing   Happy Earth Day to all of my Best Friends! I am filled with joy at the thought of sharing this lush planet with you all! It seems appropriate to give thanks for all

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Prayers for Karen – UPDATES

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY KAREN!!! One year ago today Karen got her transplant!!   Hello today is 11/2/15, Karen continues to improve from her transplant and I am trying to help as best I can.  I had to have back surgery after

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Hangover with Cirrhosis after Ablation

Hangover with Cirrhosis after Ablation  This is another one of those blogs that might not make a lot of sense. Howeva, when I experience something and write about it, so many of you have gone through the same thing. We

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Ethanol Alcohol Ablation for HCC

Ethanol Alcohol Ablation for HCC I get these hunches. Call it intuition, inkling, or whatever you want. The tumor was growing again. For several weeks my snooze alarm was getting tapped more frequently. Not even Matt Bellamy motivated me to

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I Don’t Want a Liver Transplant

Sleep is kind of like a thought eraser that swipes the day clean. But I frequently wake up in the middle of the night and remember the tumor. One night last August I awoke with the image of big clamps all around my chest cavity. Eyes wide open now, I saw myself lying on a table surrounded by doctors and nurses, my face as white as the fish I had seen floating belly up on the pond last year. I could see my head arching back with a tube tunneling down my throat that clicked and whished while forcing air into my lungs. I blinked hard and then stared at my chest as my breasts moved up and down. I wondered what it would be like to wake up in ICU with that machine on and my hands tied down. Shaking my head with an audible moan, I flung back the covers, and jumped out of bed like the house was on fire.

My heels drummed a hollow beat on the wood floor as I fairly flew to the kitchen. I stood in the dark. I don’t want a liver transplant. The thought of someone dying to keep me alive is more than I can bear. Of course there are a lot of other things that I don’t want. I don’t want to clean the branches up from the last storm. I don’t want to pay taxes or shave my legs. I don’t want cancer.

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New Years Eve Phone Call to YOU

New Years Eve Phone Call to YOU  I just called my friend Laura, and spent 22 minutes talking about everything from New Year’s Resolutions to home made cashew cheese. If I could make a New Years Eve phone call to you

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